cant sleep

so i cant sleep tonight.  it's super late and i have to get up extra early tomorrow-some school shit.

but i can't sleep.

i got in a fight with one of my best friends.  seriously---how come girls are always fighting with each other?  the drama, its so stupid.  

anyhow--my 'friend' (lets call her 'J') all of a sudden she kinda just stopped talking to me last week and i have no idea what i did.  J does this all the time.  Like she is always mad at one person or another.  i guess this week is my week where she decided to be mad at me.  

we were planning on hanging out at the mall together and at the last minute i had to flake because i had a TON of homework, and i think thats what made her mad.  

but instead of talking to me about it, she has just been giving me the silent treatment for over a week!

thats just lame.  anyhow---yesterday i sent her this CRAZY mean email.  Oooops.  No matter how hard I try to do the right thing, sometimes i can't help myself and i react.  sigh.  so now its a huge drama.

hence, i can't sleep.  

life is rough enough as it is, how come friends can't just be friends?

lxi